Reminder

This site has been under mental construction for what feels like forever. Today, I have finally found the courage to activate it—just as it is. Down the road, I will be correcting some things here and there and improving visuals. However, one thing I will never change is the way a post was written. I do not mean grammatically or technically; I mean the state of mind and the level of understanding I was at while writing that piece. I know in my heart that this approach will provide an inviting and relatable atmosphere where individuals who are at different stages of their unique journeys are going to find what they need without feeling less than. The range of understanding is going to show us all where we start, how things once felt as written in stone change, and how learning never ends.

It’s messy. It’s far from the perfection I had been chasing, which led to decades of procrastination.

I am an adult female with AuDHD and an INFJ personality type. Those of you, who know what all these 3 gifts individually are will not have a hard time picturing what their unity looks like in human form. A very downplayed and even undermined analogy would be to put it like live in a constant state of invisible meltdown. Adults who know how draining meltdowns are will get the analogy better.

For over two decades, I have been stuck in this cycle. When exposed to continuous stress and negative stimulation, I can barely spell my own name, let alone design a functioning website. That’s why the current state of this site feels like a derelict house. But it’s one of those houses filled with potential. I am doing my best to make it half-decent, and I am working on it every single day.

Today, February 24, 2025, is the day I clicked the Live button. My life depends on this step. I don’t know how or why, but I trust the universe fully. Activating this website means I am breaking free from the chains that have bound me for more than four decades.

I’ve started calling each day “This is my past.” (I’ll explain what I mean by that in an upcoming post.)

Through this website, I am stepping into a life where I finally get to live, to be present—in a way that uplifts me. This is a first for me! I have to clarify what I just wrote, what I meant by “I finally get to live, to be present”. My version of reality looks very (with 10 Es) far away and different from what most people perceive it. It is usually pictured as someone living in daily bliss or constant joy and acing it in all areas of their life. Oh no sir. For me, living in a way that uplifts me is a new way of living where the nonstop internal feeling of shame and guilt have subsided exponentially. Each day, I get to spend at least an hour now without feeling like a total loser. Every day, another piece of pain gains clarity and the feeling I experience from that clarity is exhilarating. I am beginning to understand why I endured so much suffering, why I lived in a constant, repetitive loop, trapped in only two states: freeze and fawn.

I am not alone. I never was. Now, I stand with all of you to bring this same awareness forward. No matter how big or small, change is inevitable.

Bring your best self here. Ignore perfection. Smile at my rookie mistakes. Focus on the message—not on the messenger or the delivery.

One of my all-time favorite sayings (I don’t know the origin) is:

“Small minds are busy with people, average minds are busy with events, big minds are busy with ideas.” – Anonymous

Let’s think good thoughts, create great ideas, and shape something meaningful—for the benefit of all.

Welcome, Sinions! Let’s start feeling good!